If I Had One Chance

LOOKING BACK ON THE MANY OBSTACLES IN LIFE, SOME THINGS I JUST DIDN'T DO RIGHT

IN AND OUT OF TROUBLE, THAT'S HOW THINGS WENT, THAT WAS MY LIFE

NEVER HOLDING ON TO ANYTHING, IN FACT, I THOUGHT MY LIFE WAS IN TACT

DIDN'T SEEM AS IF ANYTHING WAS WRONG, WHEN ONE SITUATION CAME I HANDLED IT

COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHY I HAD SO MANY UNTIL THAT ONE NIGHT I HEARD MY MOM CRYING

SHE WAS PRAYING FOR ME, HER SON, AND EVERYTHING SHE WAS PRAYING FOR DIDN'T SOUND LIKE ME, UNTIL...

SHE SPOKE ON ONE THING, IN WHICH TOOK ME BACK TO ONE OF THE HARDEST TIMES IN MY LIFE

FILLED WITH STRIFE, MISERY, PAIN AND ALL OUT NOTHING TO GAIN

RESPECT WASN'T WORTH IT, WORRIES IN MY MOM'S LIFE JUST DIDN'T FIT

SHE CONTINUED, EYES FILLED WITH GRIEF, HER LAST PRAY, FOR GOD TO TURN ME

MOM IS NO MORE, AND I SIT IN A PLACE WHERE ELECTRICAL FENCES SEPARATE ME FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD

IF I COULD GIVE ANYTHING TO BRING THE ONE WOMAN WHO TRULY LOVED ME, BACK TO A PLACE WHERE SHE IS NEEDED

MY LIFE I WOULD LIE DOWN, AND TRADE IN SO THE WORLD COULD SEE HER SMILING FACE AGAIN

T WARE

Only You

A person can make you feel high,
A person can make you feel low.
But only you can decide,
Which way you want to go.

A person can hurt you mentally,
A person can hurt you physically.
But only you can place,
A limit on your abilities.

A person can cause drama,
A person can cause a situation.
But only you can create,
Your own reputation.

A person can make you laugh,
A person can make you cry.
But only you can make,
Decisions for your life.

I guess what I'm trying to say,
That when you're living day to day.
Don't live by what people do,
But live by what you know is true.

Never Say Goodbye

I feel the time is getting close,
When we will have to part.
Ill show that I'll miss you,
With last words from my heart.

We must be dreaming,
For it has gone to fast.
The time we have spent together,
Will soon be in our past.

I'll forget this day is coming,
Today I stand here.
Trying to tell you,
How much I really care.

We'll go our seperate ways,
And I'll make it if I try.
Just hold on to our memories,
Say Never, Say Goodbye!!!

To My Alarm Clock

Every morning I lie there innocently sleeping
When the peace is ruptured by a horrible beeping.
My serenity ripped asunder, sudden and drastic
By this evil, demonic, red-eyed piece of plastic.

I roll over in pain and pound on the snooze,
Groaning, moaning, thinking 'What's there to lose?'
'Don't make me get up, just nine minutes more.'
The same thing I've said every morning before.

It's not that I hate mornings or dread the new day.
It's just that I loathe waking up in this way.
I'd much rather simply rise up with the light,
Glowing in the window, chasing away the night.

But the sudden screaming, the incessant fuss,
Makes me want to yell and cry and simply to cuss.
Especially the knowledge that all of my sorrow
Will be repeated the same time, same way, tomorrow.

Bez Cu :)

I love you today and
I will love you tomorrow

Just some words
To clear the sorrow

That will never
Leave my heart or yours

From this day forward
You are so special to me

I love you
With all my heart

Always have
And always will

From family and friends
That never end

You will always be with me
As I will always be with you

Until we cross the gates of heaven
There we will always be

Together until the end

Rebuild

No more sorrow, no more pain
Only love and understanding is left to gain
No more words without meaning
Only phrases and gestures full of feeling
No more lonely days and sleepless nights
Only quality time filled with hugs so tight
No more thoughts of worthlessness
Only moments shared together engulfed in happiness
No more starving for attention and a look of disgrace
Only daily kisses accompanied with a warm embrace
Love is patient, kind and complicated
To make it work communication must be initiated
God and His words play a big part
Hold Him near and dear, close to your heart

Always

The day you were born, the whole world was blessed
These thoughts in my mind to you I must confess

The time has come for me to express my true feelings
You are the center of my thoughts and the essence of my being

What you have brought me I never thought I could procure
The gift of comfort, with you I am secure

For you have lifted me up from a life filled with sorrow
And made me realize there is always a better tomorrow

It amazes me how someone can make me feel this way
I love you more and more with each passing day

You brighten my days and lift my spirits
I have felt this for so long and now want you to hear it

So you may know the place you hold in my heart
You are always with me even when we're apart

I truly believe what we have is meant to be
Just open your heart and soon you shall see

What I am willing to do to keep a smile on your face
Just know that I'm here and will be always

Quiet Reign

Optimistic and spontaneous
I pursue with a focus to achieve
Why must one live life behind the curtains?
I harness all wisdom I can receive
High hopes that one day to be illustrious
Living content and blessed indeed
Recognized for all my proficiency
So I may help all who are in need
I wake up and smell the roses
Thank Almighty for every breath
Knowing someday I might surely wake up
To notice I have nothing left
In myself and others I do believe
When all comes crashing down to debris
With fiery fervor tucked into my sleeve
My heart burns with an urge to be the best I can be.

Growing Up

To my friend Hariss and Naabil....

True friendships are like snowflakes,
each one equally special,
yet somehow always unique.
Some friends you choose on your own-and
some, like us are chosen for one
another before we're even old
enough to speak.
Friends help each other to grow and
discover what life is all about--
Sometimes we choose to walk down
separate paths, only to return
and tell the other what was found
out.
For us girls, simply labeling yourself
a friend does not get you off the
hook--
We have several responsibilities, such
as gossiping, doing each other's
hair, and reassuring each other how
fat we DON'T look!
True friends never judge--we'll stand
by each other no matter how poor of
choices one of us might make.
We see one another through sleepless
nights and tears, never sure when
the sadness will break.
It's amazing how quickly life starts
passing by, the older we get.
Many times when things get rough, it
seems easiest to simply just quit.
But after all life's up's and down's,
you've been lucky enough to find
someone who makes you complete in
life.
Someone not to replace us all, but to
add to your happiness--who wants
you as his very own best friend and
to make you his loyal friend.

The Battle

some where deep inside a battle rages, every day the fight takes its tole.

the pain over whelms, it pulls me down, it washes over me in waves.

some where deep inside a battle rages, the endless fight between good and bad,

some times i want to let the bad take me, some times i havnt got the heart.

some where deep inside a battle rages, how can i keep fighting, how do i win,

two sides of the same coin.

some where deep inside a battle rages, thoughts of dark subdue me, my hands are tied,

falling victim to the dark, its easy to give in,soon the pain turns numb.

some where deep inside a battle rages, just give in to it, all of the fight is gone, tiredness sets in,

the dark rolls over me, i sigh relief, i dont need to fight, i cant, i give in to the pain,its almost comforting.

somewhere deep inside a battle is subsiding, whats left. its relief, im done, what was i fighting for,

its not clear any more, no more culpability, its just who i am, im done, just take me, there is nothing left.

deep inside there is nothing, just dark, just quiet acceptance, relief, why should it matter, its only me,

give in to the pull of sleep, its easier,so numb,so tired,so....done.

Fighting To Make A Difference!!

I know I know life is hard,
and some people are going to break my heart.
Everything i do seems to be small
but i'm gonna face it all.

I look around me
and all I see,is people satering at me,
making fun of who
I wish to be.

Nothing you'll ever say or do
could make me listen to you
as I'm ready to show the real me
for I'm proud of who I will be.

If everyone really cared,
we can save this world.
I will do my very best,
and hope you help me through the rest.

So lets make this real,
make it a closed deal.
We'll watch eachother's back
so we can keep on track.

Malay,Indian,Chinese or Singh,
I know, I know that we can,
make this world a better place
work together,this is not a race.

We got to keep this in structure
and care about our culture
plan the best ever future
before we get controlled by destruction.

Wishes

Wishes are meant for you to ponder, they pass along to someone in need, or can be kept all to ourselves. Wishes are sincere in belief that all our hopes and dreams are within reach.

My wishes for you are my own'..They are an everlasting trust that miracles happen and dreams really do come true. Understood is the value of a nurturing heart, the innocence of a child's eyes and the wisdom of an aging hand.

I wish that the morning sky will forever intrigue you and the stardust of the night will captivate you. I wish that you will always see the man in the moon and entrust him with your deepest secrets.

I wish for you a creative spirit that dusts your imagination with youthful dreams and opens you to wonderful surprises just waiting to happen.

I wish for you to yearn for nothing and find contentment from within. That you will always know what to say to a friend, that your compassion will heal, and many more names will be etched in your heart.

Making A Difference

The world offers everyone a golden opportunity,
In making life more meaningful and with tranquility,

Roses planted in each garden enhances its beauty,
Tendered with care, it continues to grow in prosperity.

Love makes the world go around in peace and harmony,
In places where man had fought with bitterness and hate,

A path of ugly destruction uproots its serenity,
That leads us to find answers to its morbid state.

A fallen world leaves us with many deep uncertainties,
As we investigate its torn threads and gather lost strength,

To build a bright future, in exploration of the humanities,
Thus, conquers our fears, as we celebrate in great length.

Man's knowledge and discovery of his inner and outer world,
Creates a playground for changes in the environment,

Be it a simple task that can alleviate human suffering,
In extending life its daily dose of peace and contentment.

Making a difference is a potential desire to be instilled,
As a personal trait to be fulfilled in each and every aspect,

Of the human race, in its vast culture and religion,
A solidarity given to all minds, open with love and respect.

Live

Run.
Everywhere.
Aimlessly.
Without worrying.
Without looking back.
For the freedom.
Run.

Play.
Without thinking.
Without planning.
With imagination.
With love.
With life.
Play.

Laugh.
Loudly.
Endlessly.
Innocently.
At yourself.
For yourself.
Laugh.

Be.
Crazy.
Funny.
Courageous.
Loving.
Yourself.
Be.

Live.
For yourself.
Helping others.
The way you want.
The way you need.
Your life.
Live.

Come Softly To Me(poem)

Come softly to me my wonderful joy,
Enter within my waiting embrace,
So I may hold you forever and a day,
Allow me to offer you all that I have.

So unplanned(poem)

A chance on love,
So unplanned,
A feeling like this,
Is no demand.